I always imagined myself in a place of no insecurities and emotional downfalls, but what would I be without them? Moving to Australia has challenged me in ways I never sought imaginable. My first two semesters here resulted in one failed class, a chronic pericarditis diagnosis, massive financial decline, and attempted suicide. Yeah, it got real real fast. Life to me was worthless, the thought of it happening still makes me cringe. In one of the happiest places in the world, my emotional state got so low that I sought to end my life as means of giving up. Somehow, God didn’t think it was my time yet, so he spared my life. While it took everything in me to share this, the very thing that kept me alive was the impact I could have on someone else’s life just by sharing my experiences. If I went through with taking my life, I wouldn’t just be giving up on myself but also other people in my life.
At the the height of continuous acts of inhumane violence in the world today, we need to make sure we stay up. Stay encouraged and informed, put down your phone, and avoid being paralyzed and defined by socially constructed labels of beauty, success, and fame. Call me cliché, but we all have a purpose on this planet. Even if you haven’t identified it yet, it’s there. When you put your right arm on your left chest and you feel your heart beat, that’s purpose. Don’t ever feel like you have to take away your purpose because life continues to ware you down. Pain is apart of the process, though arguably is shouldn’t be in some cases, it’s the very thing that made a lot of us come out stronger than ever before. My only intent is to encourage those who deem life as worthless, unbearable, and are tired of feeling weighed down by their mistakes, that life still has the ability to get better. Don’t give up, not seeing other people give up is the reason I chose not to. Unknowingly, you may already have just as much of an impact on other people’s lives. Help me help other people by helping yourself!
Stay up.
You have the power to get through anything!
